This week I’ve been listening to Wayne Dyer’s new book, “I Can See Clearly Now.” I especially like the format he used, beginning each chapter with a memorable experience and then ending each chapter explaining how at 70 years old, he clearly sees how the experience shifted his perception, or guided him toward his life’s purpose.
Like the authors, I believe in synchronicity and signs rather than coincidences. So, when Judith shared her story about letting go of her physical stuff to go write her latest book, on the same day I heard Wayne describe how he gave up his physical stuff to go write a book, I knew there was a profound message for me to hear.
I started thinking about why I so desperately want an early out. There are so many reasons why waiting until 2016 to retire is good for me. But an early out would give me a separation bonus, and a separation bonus is just what I need to move all my stuff to Asheville. Wayne and Judith had to surrender and release all of their stuff to break free of the burdens that were keeping them stuck. And I remember now that I did the same exact thing, for the same exact reason, in 2003.
To prepare for Peace Corps Service I had to let go of what was holding me back and stopping me from fulfilling my dream. I had to surrender to a higher calling and I remember just how freeing that surrender was for me. There was no doubt in my mind that it was time to get rid of treasures – clothes, books, jewelry, furniture – so I could manifest true treasure in my life.
There are times – very few but some – when I think about something I used to own. I’ll think to myself, “oh I wish I still had that!” And then just as quickly I’ll think, “I’m so glad I let that go so I could have so much more – my Peace Corps experience!” I really don’t miss anything I sold, gave away, or donated.
What occurs to me now is that I’ve recreated a life where stuff is weighing me down. It’s not the same kind of stuff – but really, stuff is stuff. It’s interesting that I believed I couldn’t move to Asheville unless a financial miracle occurred that allowed me to take all of that stuff with me, when I already know that when I follow my heart, I need do nothing more than surrender, and follow the inner guidance that always takes me to exactly where I’m supposed to be.
Recently I’ve thought a lot about selling my dining room table and chairs. I’m sure I’ll do it when I’m ready to place the ad. The funny thing is, I know now that my inner voice was already telling me what Judith and Wayne were reminding me and that is, I don’t need an early out or a financial miracle to move to Asheville or anywhere else. I just need to surrender….and be prepared to let go of what no longer serves me, and allow a life of grace and service. Let go and listen. Trust. And watch for signs along the way.
Speaking of signs…
When the inside handle of my car door broke off early this week, I knew I needed to get it fixed right away. To be honest, I did not want to spend money on my car. But without that handle, I was trapped inside. Yes, I could roll down the window and open the door from the outside – I always know a way out – but I like my life easy – I knew I had to cough up the cash and get it fixed.
There is a body shop no more than a block from my house. I was never quite sure if it was open for business or was abandoned. I looked it up and sure enough it was open for business and after a few emails I was told the car would be fixed for $118. I made the appointment for Friday and thought of all the things I was grateful for – the problem itself being small, the convenience of getting the car fixed, the finances to pay for the fix, the fix – parts and labor, being affordable, a great car that gets me where I need to be, and last but not least, a work schedule that allows me to work at home on Friday so I could easily drop the car off and pick it up with no inconvenience at all.
I dropped the car off and when I walked over to pick it up I noticed a sign in the body shop window that made me stop and pay attention… I gave thanks to the Universe for providing this little jewel of a business right here in my own neighborhood. I thought about how service is the heart of my business – Spa de la Paz – and how service in many different forms, is the heart of my being.
When I walked inside to pick up the key, Sue gave me the credit card slip to sign. She told me that Joe said it was so quick and easy to fix, that he couldn’t charge me for labor. My bill was only $50! I just looked at her as my eyes watered up a little and said, “Wow Sue! This place really does have service at the heart of it’s business!
My heart may have already been open, but that experience opened it even more. When I walked outside, my mail carrier was there and we chatted for a few minutes before hugging one another goodbye. We’ve seen each other so many times and never hugged. This was spontaneous joy – a meeting of hearts. I got in my car and drove home feeling so incredibly blessed and realizing that I really don’t need to move anywhere, if I surrender to my heart right where I am, I find myself in perfect bliss.